starting #100

 

Here’s something I’ve seen others do. So, I’m steeling ideas and claiming them as mine, just to show my own unique individuality. They write something inside their work. I stopped in the very middle of what I was doing and for a few days I’ve tried different ways and measurements to even out the spacing between words or letters. This shit ain’t easy, I had to think and count the little lines on a 1/64th ruler and stuff. Then when I messed up too many time I had to draw out another identical section of the original drawing where this is supposed to fit in. I’m close now, I think I got it.

 

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One more adjustment and I think I’ll have it.

 

 

 

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thinking

I was sketching out some ideas. Afterwards I decided to try and combine several of them. I referred back to a couple of old drawings and put everything together as one. Then it’s sat here for five days. I’ll stop by and stare at it daring to add or subtract, daring to start putting ink over the outlines. This got me to thinking, this is how I think about everything. Everything has to be planned and organized ahead of time. Nothing can be added or taken away without carefully thinking it out. Nothing can be thrown at me after this process and if there is, I stop. At work if there’s a meeting, which I hate, it’s rare that I attend. If I’m given too much notice I over think it and it becomes a huge problem. The thought of doing something out of my normal life flow just flips me out. Last minute changes to plans have the same affect. But anyway, this is my new project #96.

 

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the clock

I got started on the clock last week. I Googled photos of clocks to try for accuracy or just to see if I knew what I was doing. Then I started coming across the mechanisms inside pocket watches and the gears inside. Then my idea turned to adding a gear to the drawing. I’ve never drawn a gear so I had to look up how to. Fuck that, there was too much math involved so I improvised and drew them off the mandala technique. Then I also noticed inside the mechanical gears were layers of them, so adding one gear turned into five. But then my skull was looking too small. This was redone and the lower jaw was added to fill in more space. I was erasing so much plus getting lost in the over lapping gear lay out that I had to use a fine line to keep track of everything. So here’s the beginning of the idea, I’m sure it will change.

 

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this new thing again

Back in high school my mom noticed I could draw. I think to keep me out of trouble she bought me a really nice artists set up. When I see the prices of this stuff now, I know it had to have been pretty expensive back then. I was smoking, drinking and just getting in trouble mostly from the boredom of a backwoods town. There was an easel, a large oil base paint selection, a couple of knives, and several stretched canvass’. Back then I had a really good imagination, unlike now. It was probably all the weed I use to smoke. I’m thinking this set up was a Christmas present, my mom’s last Christmas present to me. We were off school for break then too. This gave me time to paint. The first one I painted was a cobra like snake. One of my first watercolor paintings on here was a recreation of that seen HERE. My next was a clock. I worked on this a long time trying to make wood grain in the paint and making the glass lens having a reflective shine. Back then it was like I never had to think things out, they just happened. I’m not sure why I chose a swinging pendulum or I might have changed it from something else. It was the best part of the clock. For no reason the next day I scraped off the paint and put a skull on the end. The time I had painted was 10:35. I kept this painting wrapped up and hidden. This was the time my mom died just a few months later. Life went on and through out the years this painting was misplaced.  A lot of my old artwork was thrown out never knowing I would ever do it again. It had no worth to me, it was junk I had been hauling around for years. But that painting was always kept guarded and safe. At least I thought it was.

So now I’m doing a new one. I take too long to do things on paper now. Probably because I over think everything. The clock I had started a few months ago, seen HERE. It got put on hold for some reason. I finished the clock face finally but it didn’t look finished. After staring at it for three weeks I thought I would somehow recreate my original clock from 1979.

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The problem is I started in the center of the page. This gives me no room for a pendulum. I don’t want to start a new one because I was really unaware how much detail there was even in a simple clock face. Dividing up a circle in 60 even pieces took a little math and some thought. My idea was to put two skulls side by side facing away from each other as a base for the clock. But after a while I figured out I sucked at drawing a quick skull. Two days later and some Youtube classes I came out with my first facing straight ahead which wasn’t what I was after. I had no idea this was as difficult as a clock face either. I fixed it up with my pencils that I’ll be using a lot more of and here’s my first skull in 39 years. (I think)

 

 

new thing

They changed my appointment date for the third time and told me to stop taking pain meds because they thin my blood. But it’s o.k. to keep taking Gabapentin which makes me a blathering pissy idiot. I even got pissy with my brother who is the only person I even talk to. Sorry Brutha, it’s not me! You know I’m not like this. My FMLA runs out soon and I’m really surprised I’m still getting full pay from my job. They’ve been really cool about everything so far. I must be a good employee. Either that or I’m the only one who’ll put up with a bunch of old angry people’s shit every day.

 

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The last couple of days I’ve been able to sit longer than usual. I have all this time on my hands and staring at my ceiling and sleeping has gotten old. When I get an idea to draw something it’s like I have to do it. Who would have thought a simple clock face was going to be a difficult process. This took me almost three days. This will be my next project but seeing how I can’t think like I use to it might take a while to finish.

 

 

new project – #86

It was a rare few days that I could sit at my drawing table and think clearly. I gave it everything I had because I knew it wouldn’t last long. This is an accumulation from old drawings combined into one. It made it much easier to look back at drawings I kind of liked and work from there. There’s no instructions how  to do things so I had to recreate everything from scratch. This took about 5 days to come up with and a lot of erasing.

 

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The braid is the only big element I have left to add with ink. I’m really hoping I can do this without any mistakes. It might take a few days until I’m ready to attempt this. It would suck to get this far and think I could add something and completely fck it up, which I’m really good at.

new project #73

I’m trying to correct the previous attempts at this one. The orbs should be going back instead of forward. Large to small, I think. I haven’t got there yet. I wanted to try different shading. The first thing I tried was smaller Micron pins (.03 and .05) but they weren’t that much smaller than a .08 running dry. Digging through my drawers of crap I’ve bought and forgot about I found an old charcoal pencil. I’ve had this since the ’80’s, think I’ve found a use for it now. See what I can do with this new found wonder.

 

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next next

here’s what I came up with from the last post. I’m thinking black and white only (excluding the chocolate stain I already have on it) or ad color. Nothing ever turns out from it’s originally thought. This is the last post until it’s done. Probably…

 

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this is 18″x12″ so I can’t scan it. My scanner sucks anyway.