I have plenty of time to think while I spend most of my time laying on my back. I’ve studied every inch of my stippled ceiling. Sometimes I’ll sit up and think I’m o.k. and start walking just to find out the human body loves to play tricks on you. But then I’m already in the hall. My options are go back, go to the bathroom, come in here or go down the steps. There’s food down there. My schedule is as follows: go to the bathroom and do “stuff” and take the sorry ass pain meds they think help, then ooze down the steps one at a time bringing food back up to this room where I think some more. By now my back and legs feels like I been ran over and thrown into a fire. I’ll eat, looking out the window and think some more. That medicine is really good at clouding up my thoughts but I want to draw something. Anything. I thought simple things but not the alphabet this time, there’s an idea, though. I sat here and cut four pages into four sections. Small and simple.





new project – #86

It was a rare few days that I could sit at my drawing table and think clearly. I gave it everything I had because I knew it wouldn’t last long. This is an accumulation from old drawings combined into one. It made it much easier to look back at drawings I kind of liked and work from there. There’s no instructions how¬† to do things so I had to recreate everything from scratch. This took about 5 days to come up with and a lot of erasing.




The braid is the only big element I have left to add with ink. I’m really hoping I can do this without any mistakes. It might take a few days until I’m ready to attempt this. It would suck to get this far and think I could add something and completely fck it up, which I’m really good at.

new stuff


I never thought I was good enough to use quality art supplies. My cheap old stuff was ok to get me by. My compass was really old and sometimes the pencil would slip around when I drew circles. I searched Amazon for a compass that could hold a sharpie marker but wasn’t going to cost me a lot. I chose one made by Maped. It was inexpensive metal and plastic but had decent reviews. I figured it would be better than what I had. But, I felt cheap because I was only ordering one small item so I looked at the markers. All the pictures I’ve seen of real artists all had nice Staedtler’s or something. Some of the one’s I saw were just too much for one marker let alone a set of five. The best seller on Amazon was a set of six Pigma Micron’s. That was my order. Less than $20 but I could have got a box of twelve ultra fine line Sharpies for less than that. I was really impressed by the compass, it has some weight to it and locks nice. The nut that holds the pen in is plastic which will probably be the first thing to go. It looks like a standard thread that can be replaced. The markers are really nice. I like that I can use them at an angle and keep the same line thickness. It feels like I have more control with these. The one thing I didn’t like and it’s the big drawback, they don’t dry fast enough. I’ve smeared the ink several times which never happened with a sharpie. For that reason I’ll probably not buy these again.

But I am doing things, just things that aren’t good enough to post yet. I’m experimenting.






This was the original letter “Q”. The new paper is really thick and made for acrylics. I thought it would make blending colors easier but it was pooling into the grooves. This was put away and the Q was finished on the old paper. I turned this into a practice of blending, shading, and working on this newer thicker paper. No one’s teaching me this (insert dirty words here), I’m learning it on my own.